Monday, October 15, 2012

[as of late]

.city walk
.universal studios
.halloween parties
.sick day

[therefore i am.]

i am cautiously optimistic.
i think the world is obsessed with technology.
i am happy observing and making mental memories.
i have the cutest class of two year olds.
i miss slumber bumbers with roommates.
i fear becoming a cat lady. 
i feel exhausted at the end of the day.
i smell like latex, sanitizer, and Pink Chiffon. 
i usually press snooze 3 times before waking up. 
i search Google to spellcheck.
i wonder if the HokyPoky really is what it's all about.
i regret things I didn't do more than those that I did.
i love my LoveBug & SnuggleBaby (and the OtterPop on the way).
i care. i hope y'all know that. 
i tell the BEST rendition of "There was an Old Lady Who Swallowed a Fly".
i worry i sabotage. 
i am not Barbie.
i remember Friday nights in the den watching Are You Afraid of the Dark?.
i believe in a thing called love...just listen to the beat of my heart...good song.
i sing during 42.8% of the day
i don’t care about shoes, I'd rather be barefoot.
i don’t clean my glasses as often as I should.
i write post-it notes obsessively.
i win thumb wars (I have longs thumbs compared to my baby hands).
i lose my appetite at the very mention of Legends.
i dance in the Kitchen when baking.
i wish i could have kittens. yes, multiple.
i never learned to skip.
i listen to Jack Johnson everyday during nap time.
i don't understand math. or maybe it doesn't understand me.
i can only cross one eye at a time.
i need to enjoy.
i forget. i forgot. 

by the way....HAPPY 100th POST! 

Tuesday, September 11, 2012


Where were you when the world stopped turning on that September day?

Sunday, September 2, 2012


overacting. terrible taglines. dramatic trailers. 

These are all part of the television station we all know and love (and hate). Lifetime. "You're story's on." Well, my life story does not involve cheating spouses, teen pregnancy, psychotic babysitters, or murderous neighbors so I'm pretty sure it's not MY story. But, I do occasionally indulge with these "based on actual events" movies. (And I know I am not alone!) They are a great reminder that my life is actually pretty peachy.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

[viewing pleasure]

Just some pictures from the last couple months...

Took Abby to see PETER PAN for her 3rd BIRTHDAY! I may have been a bit more excited than she was, but turns out that it was very loosely based on the story of Peter Pan. But, it was perfect for Abby and kiddos around her age, as it was interactive and short! She sat still the ENTIRE time with awe and amazement while watching Tink and Peter adventure through Neverland with pirates and the Lost Boys (and YES, Tootles was there too!)

Peter & Abby & Tink
My Little LoveBug

Jake's on Balboa

The only Salt Water Taffy I like!


Thursday, July 5, 2012


"Not all who wander are aimless."

I'm no stranger to change (as you may well know).

I was offered a full-time teaching position at our company's San Gabriel location. So, as of three weeks ago, I left Pasadena and got to work! I am MUCH closer to home, parking isn't an issue, the center is newer, and my coworkers are lovely. Come August, I will be the lead teacher for the Honeybees.

I miss my Pasadena friends/coworkers and kiddos, but what an opportunity!

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

[as they tipped their hat]

One morning while walking to work two older gentlemen were chilling on a planter. We bid each other "Good morning".

As I continued walking they proceeded to invite me to join their tickle fight later that day.

Sadly, I was on my way to work and had to decline.


After we lost Firefly at work, I took over her class of 3rd-6th graders, along with her driving route. I loved the little kiddos I got to pick up and spend time with in the car. Unfortunately, we have a strict RADIO DISNEY rule in the car (I actually didn't realize Radio Disney was still up and running.) Well, Radio Disney AM1110 plays the same 9-10 songs on a loop, which meant on days I was in the car for more than an hour, I listened to the same songs over and over. (Yippee for the day I was driving for 5 hours straight!)

Anywho, one of my sassy little 1st grade girls LOVES singing along to songs she knows and anytime TTYLXOX came on the radio I'd hear, "TOOTLES! CAN YOU TURN IT UP PLEASE" (my hand moved for the volume knob before she even had to say anything because I knew). I would listen to the song and had NO IDEA what the lyrics where even supposed to be -most likely a sign I am getting old(er). 

Be Be Be my BFF
'cause IDK what's coming next
I'll be LMHO with the rest

*I actually had to google "LMHO". ("Laughing My Head Off", if you're curious.)

One day, wanting to be able to sing along and impress my little sassy girl, I had another student teach me the words to the chorus. The next day when the song came on the radio I was ready to rock out. I got all the words right, unfortunately my plan backfired. I had expected little sass to say, "Tootles, you know the song!", "That's so fun!" or "Wow, you're amazing"... ya know, something along those lines? To my dismay the reaction was a blank look followed by "Tootles, you're not a very good singer". 

WHAT! Did this little sass not understand I've been singing since birth? Sang at graduation? Been a member of honor choirs? Received formal vocal training? Performed at Walt Disney Concert hall (thrice)? Performed on stage at the Hollywood Bowl?

Follow-up story: She did catch me singing along to Adele a couple days later. And she stopped singing in order to listen to me and asked, "Tootles? Is that you singing? You sound nice." YES! Thanks for my confidence back little sass!

LESSON: I should probably stick to songs that are age-appropriate.

Saturday, May 19, 2012


President Henry B. Eyring
April 2012 General Conference

If we have faith in Jesus Christ, the hardest as well as the easiest times in life can be a blessing. In all conditions, we can choose the right with the guidance of the Spirit. We have the gospel of Jesus Christ to shape and guide our lives if we choose it. And with prophets revealing to us our place in the plan of salvation, we can live with perfect hope and a feeling of peace. We never need to feel that we are alone or unloved in the Lord’s service because we never are. We can feel the love of God. The Savior has promised angels on our left and our right to bear us up. And He always keeps His word.

If the foundation of faith is not embedded in our hearts, 
the power to endure will crumble.

Monday, May 14, 2012

[dance the tide]

So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance the tide.

Thanks Garth.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012


  • Saying GOODBYE to my 1st & 2nd graders. (I still see them everyday though!)
  • Say HELLO to the new lead teacher (3rd-6th grade).
  • Lost my license. Spent lunch break at DMV getting a new one. Maintenance found license. 
  • Driving a Mercedes. (Does it matter if it's a youth bus?)
  • Rocking out to WE ARE YOUNG (and it's necessary to call Hambre and sing).
  • Abs have recovered from bounce house. 

Monday, April 23, 2012

[whiteboard question]

When homework is complete and checked students may choose to do math worksheets, read, or answer a "whiteboard question". The questions change every week ranging from "What would happen if the Easter Bunny ran out of candy?" or "You wake up in the morning and find a dinosaur in your room. Write a story to describe what happens." (5 sentences).

Well, last weeks assignment was a little controversial. "WRITE A STORY ABOUT YOUR FAVORITE COUNSELOR (teacher)."

With such sweet little kiddos the stories/sentences were pretty cute.

"My favorite teacher is Tootles because she makes good buns." (Some of my students go straight to ballet and I put their in buns for class.)

"I love Tootles' eye color, hair, and voice." (Apparently I sing without even knowing.)

"I like Tootles because of her hugs."

And my teaching partner commented, "Tootles? You've only been here two days!" (Correction! Two months!)

Sunday, March 18, 2012

[dear Santa]

Dad found the following letter in his briefcase. Cerca 1997. Unopened.

Friday, March 16, 2012

[story time.]

  • "Miss Tootles, you look ridiculous." The comment was quickly followed by an "oh no! I take it back! I take it back!-look" This student was commenting on my hair because I had a curl popping out of my ponytail.
  • During a game of Gatorball (dodgeball+alligators+crab walking) my smallest boy said some choice words. My jaw dropped to the floor hearing it from a 1st grader! This was not the worst part though! I then had to repeat the same words to my supervisor. Awkward. Later, I had to inform his mother of the situation (it didn't help that the little boy was now in his mother's arms crying.) I explained that he was using inappropriate language during the game, but it get's better! She wanted to know the exact words he I had to repeat them to her as well. Gee Golly awkward.
  • Endless "tattle-tails".
  • (Serving yogurt and granola for snack.) "Tootles, I am not going to tell you I cannot have yogurt. My parents let me have cheese and ice cream occasionally so dairy is okay sometimes. I just don't like yogurt. So, may I have just granola?" (This same girl told me on my second day that she cannot have dairy at all-because she didn't like the snack and wanted something else- and she got a lecture from another teacher to not "scare Tootles".) Food allergies are crazy I tell ya!
  • Students trying to guess my age. "20?" No. "45?" Gee thanks!
  • I was running football drills with some of the kiddos. I was demonstrating what they would be doing and when I pitched the ball to them it was an awful throw. Two of the boys immediately approached me and said KINDLY, "Um Tootles, I think we can do the throwing from now on." (Twenty minutes later I regained their athletic respect by throwing perfect passes.) They now know that I'm a soccer person and I get roped into a lot of games or reffing.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

[i am tootles]

After 6 month of searching, by golly, I've done it.


Everything that led up to the job offer reminded me that I am never on my own. I researched this Child Development Center online and discovered the hiring manager works at their Pasadena location (they also have a San Gabriel location). I had an interview for a nanny position early on Tuesday morning in Pasadena, so I took along my resume to drop off at the Center on my way home.

After the nanny interview I was utterly lost finding the Center...I mean LOST. Even my GPS was telling me strange directions and sending me in wrong directions. (I won't tell you exactly where I ended up in fear of being made fun of endlessly by certain family members.) I was about to give up, thinking "I guess it's not meant to be", but instead I pulled over, collected myself, said a little prayer, and finally found the Center.

I walked into the wrong building and was escorted to the office. I was handed an application to fill out and told I would be contacted by the hiring manager later in the week. I was not even finished filling out the application when I was invited back to speak with one of the directors. She was impressed by my education and resume and informed me of several different positions that were open. I was invited back for another interview the following day and was officially offered a job as a TEACHER (1st/2nd Grade After School Group).

Everything after that was a whirlwind and a blur. (Paperwork, fingerprints, Dr. visits, etc.) I have now been working there for one week. I'm still learning student names, scheduling, and all the logistics. Our After School division goes by nicknames and I am "Tootles" (think lost boy in Peter Pan). It's quite fun telling stories from work and referring to my co-workers by their nicknames-I probably sound like an idiot. "Skittles and I were talking..." I love it thus far and I'm excited to be back in the classroom!

Look forward to some fun stories in the future!

Monday, February 20, 2012

[become as a little child]

Riding in the backseat of the car with Abby today, I pulled out this exact picture from my purse. A friend had given it to me at church on Sunday with a sweet little note written on the back.

Abby looked at the picture and states, "That's Jesus."

She then pointed to the child, looked up at me with her inquisitive eye and asks, "Is that me?"

If we have a heart to learn and a willingness to follow the example of children, their divine attributes can hold a key to unlocking our own spiritual growth.

Friday, February 10, 2012

[poet didn't know it]

Around 1997 I had a poem published in a children's poetry book.

I remember it involved thunder, lightening, and the future.

I was thinking today that I wish I knew where to find said book.

And why didn't I get a copy back in 1997?

Pretty cool, but I have no proof.

Oh well, I know the truth.

I am a published poet.

Nice job, 9 year old me!

Saturday, February 4, 2012



"I'm gonna live forever
I'm gonna learn how to fly

I feel it coming together
People will see me and cry

I'm gonna make it to heaven
Light up the sky like a flame

I'm gonna live forever
Baby remember my name..."

On Wednesday, two of my friends were finalists in a month long singing competition. Each contestant performed two songs and a panel of judges critiqued (although they seemed to comment more on the contestants clothing than their actual singing).

[Both pictured above] Francesca performed "Walk Away" (Kelly Clarkson) and "I Keep on Falling" (Alicia Keys). Greg performed "Back at One" (Brian McKnight) and "She's Out of My Life" (Michael Jackson). Both did an amazing job, they were beat out by much older and experienced performers however.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

[vday prep]

Dear Friends (you know who you are),

Sorry to ruin the surprise, but I had to share! Just act surprised when you receive these beauties in the mail.

Love, Ash

Saturday, January 14, 2012


I find these adds incredibly IRONIC.
[UNPLUG! Go to our website! Right?]
However, the site is nice.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012


There was a little girl,
Who had a little curl,
Right in the middle of her forehead.
When she was good,
She was very good indeed,
But when she was bad she was horrid.

-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

So, what happens when you take the curls away?Strange right?

[a girl & her mouse]